"Nobody saw my tears behind my fake smile..."

Let the above quote itself talk for my heart...It was crushed, a picture-perfect heart shattered into pieces. I was humiliated, badly. Not to mention...Now, 1a.m. sharp, I'm crying myself to bed, heading into the darkness of sorrow and of immense of pain. I can't, I can't...it's unbearable. Let alone my inner tears speak for themselves...I've died of a broken heart, a scarred memory and a soul...Goodbye Jayden.

"A mui(Cynthea) is a little bit of childhood that can never be lost."

Cynthea arh Cynthea...Hrm, a bit of 'sampat', sometimes adorable in 'some' way, quite pretty actually(Mikey 'kao-ing' her anyway...)(maybe I'm kidding, maybe I'm not...) and absolutely carefree girl - Cynthea mei/mui(haven't decided yet what to call her). Bloggie beware, this post will be very informal compared to my previous posts. Don't say I didn't warn y'all... We met during the best prefect camp ever to date(2010). She's also in the group, '4-nix'!(I know, what a lame name...It was created by the ever-so-lame 'Car-lost'(Carlos). Cynthea is often described as a 'sampat' girl around school, that doesn't surprise me at all, not at all. But I still consider her as a lovely gal', a gay gal'. Recently, she's also now my good friend's sis.(Mikey)So that makes us bros...Don't crack your mind Bloggie if you don't understand my informal English. Cynthea is a good listener as well, she can support anything you do. That's the best part bout' her. And I appreciate her immensely. Stay happy and have fun everyday, that's the most suitable wish that I can give her. Hope you find your true love one day, princess...

"Save papers, don't do homework!"

I will say this and a thousand times more "I despise homework!". Endless of it...I'm tired, exhausted and totally frustrated. Homework, why do you do my like that? I know you are the one who made me on top of the world often enough, but why why, why you put so much darn stress on me. Your 'brothers' and 'sisters' have accumulated my desk now and more than ever. By the way, I love Mark Sailing, although his character is such a total douche bag. Hehe...that's me. Back to homework, I hate you...for now, not for eternity. I'm not being hypocritical, alright...I really liked you, homework...I need my sleep. So, step aside homework, but I know that I haven't seen the last of ya'...Love Cory Monteith!

"For the first time in my life, I'm scolding myself."

It's the 3rd time in my miserable life, that I'm being 'emo'. Girls...I simply just cannot understand them, if you know what I'm talking bout', Chien Yee mei. Haiz, you can say me of being such a dumb a$$, an imbecile, a moron, an idiot...But nothing hurts more than not being myself every single day. 'Emo' Jayden...oh crap, that's not gonna be a good thing, not at all. Gosh, I have mixed thoughts now; relationships, homework, tuitions, more tuitions. The worst being the relationships. Believe me, Bloggie, I'm really in blue now, no mood, no nothing. I'm tired after 7 long hours of photography, homework, naggin' from mummy and tuitions! This 'girl' - GieGie...sorry cannot say out her name out loud, is so, so complicated. Will talk bout' her next time, Bloggie. In the meantime, I wanna thank Chien Yee mei for always being there for me when I needed someone most. I appreciate her deeply from the bottom of my heart. Okay, continue to 'emo' now...

"Glee means to be yourself."

Glee indeed makes me feel gleeful, undoubtedly. Above the picture where you can see, is my favorite character in the show - Rachel Berry played by Lea Michele. Glee has all the ingredients it needs to fulfill your hunger for entertainment. It's awesome in many ways. Its endless humor and of course the singings and routines. Glee now is my first get-away from a hectic, busy and tiring life. After the first sight of glee, often makes people think that glee is a show made for "gays". I highly disagree on that. In opposition, I think that it's truly for people who strive for a gay(joyful; carefree) life. After all, glee really does relieve stress and makes you somehow more...'gleeful'. I even changed my playlist's songs to Glee's, as you can listen...So, g'L'ee forever!

“Your birthday is a special time to celebrate the gift of 'you' to the world.”

Age is a high price to pay for maturity. Getting old one year ain't for sissies. Let's respect gray hairs, especially our own...

"Friends are the sunshine of life."

Hen Yee...arh...Hen Yee, why are you so cute..."That's what I usually said to him everyday. Based on the pic' above, he's really cute right? Anyway, he's hilarious in person, not to mention he's quite good looking too. He's excellent in playing board games; highly intelligent. He's real good in being sarcastic, trust me Bloggie. Loyal to a friend, of course he is. Besides, hrm...well...oh ya! He doesn't tuition at all! That's the part that makes me most admire him. He's caring as well, care for his friends around him. I'm most lucky to be one of his(best?) friends, i guess... What else...Hen Yee's somehow obnoxious from time to time. Shhh, don't tell this to anyone bloggie. But no one's perfect, right? Love that guy's haircut, his gesture. Plus, I know some girl who has a heart for him, Michael, if you are reading this, you should know. How lucky is he, right? He often correct me and advise me to be a better man, e.g. No bad words lar...So, I like to take this opportunity to thank him appreciatively. Having him together in our group is like the biggest joy of my life. Best of luck in your exam results, Hen Yee. There you go, bloggie. Next stop, Cynthea, you are up. Watch out gal'!

"A gentleman is simply a patient wolf."

My friends, I know y'all can't wait for me to write about Hen Yee...especially Michael Lee. Sorry, but I'm just too lazy these few days. Well it's my birthday tomorrow alright. I don't expect much anyway too. Just to wish my family live healthily, happily, friends smile everyday. Let's just hope for the best Bloggie!

"One of the greatest things about being a teenager is the sharing, the closeness and the great times you have with your friends."

Next, it's the girl who self proclaimed that she's inVsibl3. Her name, of course, I won't mention it here as she'll be reading this as soon as I finish. I knew her since form 2, actually. Let's take a trip down memory lane, shall we? She was giving me lecture or some people might even actually say 'tips' on how to get a girl that I admired. Somehow, we seemed to be getting along well. But then, after awhile, we stop chatting for a period of time. The story shifts to when I was Form 3, end of the year. She asked me politely whether I want to change class with her(4S2 to 4S1), cause that time, you know, I worked so hard just to get to 4S1 to be with the 'another' girl I admired. But that didn't work out as we planned, I stayed in S2, while she is in S1. So one day, blindly, I give myself a challenge by applying for the school's SRM unit. Surprisingly, I passed the interview by Jia Wai, it was the bomb! Then, during our 1st meeting, I came to realize her better, we started 'breaking the ice via MSN. Days passed as we started to let out feelings out to each other. Sometimes being emotional and stuffs like that, we would lend our ears to each other, trying to solve those problems. Without expecting much, we continue our relationship from then on till the occurrence of the deadly rumors. Arh, let's skip this part...One of the most memorable time we had together is probably when we three(another one being Tommy) getting through the night by listening to jokes from Tommy...It was the blast, bloggy! I hope that night would last as long as forever, I felt so 'high', free and totally 'out of this world'. Okay, continue to her characteristics...She's nice in person, but somehow lack of self-confidence at times. I would like to take this opportunity to wish her to have the utmost of fun in her camp and hope that she can smile everyday, happy everyday.

"One loyal friend is worth ten thousand relatives."

His face is like the surface of the moon, red as cherry, big and bold...pimples! Well, me and Hen Yee actually suggested to buy his acne cream, but because of financial difficulties, we haven't bought it. He has somehow 'weird' eyes, extraordinary face? Anyways, he is Lee Chuen How a.k.a. Michael. There are bad and good about him. Bad for being a 'TNT', being 'emo' occasionally and being hot-tempered, sometimes. Good is he's a loyal friend apparently. That's worth more than a million friends who are traitorous. He often follows me around anywhere I went during T.R.. He got 4 'gan' sisters, if I'm not mistaken and 1 for real. He's so professional being a 'love guru', he even uses the renowned 'DRAMA' concept to lecture me. D - Distraction, R - Regression, A - Adjustment, M - Maturation, A - Action. Remember this, folks! Great guy in his own rights. Plus, he's quite daring, bold and venturesome. Once, he lose on a game(Truth or Dare), he jumped invisible rope like a total fool! Everybody laughed out loud...But really that's the thing I truly admire about Michael. God bless him.

"Have no friends not equal to yourself."

From today onwards, I'm gonna write bout' one of my close friends on the coming posts. Well, now as you can see above is Tan Kai Xuen a.k.a. 'Xuen Xuen Fire', in contrary to his sister's nickname - 'Wei Wei Ice'. Yeah, he's one of the people who sits in "The Row"(him, Hen Yee, me, Michael Lee and Sheng Jen). He's good-looking doubtlessly. Such a 'chick-magnet' himself, he can attract girls easily without breaking a sweat. It's not like that's a bad thing, I think quite a lot of people(not me) are envious of his handsome look. Aside of having a nice look, he's also a freak of nature when studying. He's so concentrated in his studies, paying 100% of focusing during reading time. That's the thing that makes me most admire him. His trademark is usually criticizing people 'stupid'(ben dan) which I really despise it when he says that. But he's usually the live wire to Hen Yee, often makes everybody laugh their a$$es out. So, yeah, there's the good thing bout' him. The bottom line is that I'm really glad that I've met him from the bottom of my heart.

"Every day is Earth Day."

I took this picha' as I have the utmost of initiatives in saving our Earth. C'mon people, Earth is becoming more n' more uninhabitable Wake up people, you are part of this world, aren't ya? We are facing serious crisis nowadays; habitat crisis...Earthquakes, Tsunami, early volcano eruptions, melting of ice at the North/South pole, global warming...I have had it enough, be part of rescuing our one and only world guys, for our future generations, future children. The annihilation of mankind will begin soon, so soon that if we do not take actions right now this instance! So do yourselves a favor; let's try our very best in recovering what had been lost in this world. Without our vital motions, Earth might never smile again for the days to come.

"I like a teacher who gives you something to take home to think about besides homework."

That teacher is of course our beloved Mr. Wong Kiat Hi. Well, I don't know why, but I have a special bond with this teacher since I was Form 3, when I took a bad guy to him to be handled. The story continued when I headed to Form 4, which he was my Physic teacher. Grateful definitely I am besides being appreciative. We have an extraordinary relationship when he first started chatting with me via Facebook. I share my things with him, he gave me some advice which I think is very useful in my future headings. But yesterday was more personal than that, we talked bout' my inner feelings, my goal, objectives, you know my so called 'mission'. He was like my second 'love guru'? (First one being Michael Lee.) Anyways, we started chitty chitty bang bang from bout' 11.30 till 2.45 night. I can swear to God, I had never been so exposed to a teacher in my life...Thank you sir, hope that our special "..."-ship can keep going.

"All God does is watch us and kill us when we get boring. We must never, ever be boring."

Well, I'm back bloggy. Back with a new font, a new internet connection speed and definitely a new Form 4 life to top it all off. By the way, in contrary to my title, I'm gettin' real real stucked of the word 'boring'. As holiday passed by, I have started to feel like as there's no life left in me(like I'm going to die...). Hell no, Jayden! Well at least 'someone' have to tell me bout' how life's boring every single day.

Okay, the good part is I have started to realized the importance of friends; their existence in my life. I am so proud to call them as my friend especially to Zheng Zhe who's always been there for me even when my life turns upside down, Chuen How(never leave me when I went out for the so called T.R. , Hen Yee(cute as always and also a good friend) and See Yen...(maybe).

And there was also this 'special'(?) friend. She, well assumed she's all inVsibl3(com' on, you know who I'm talkin' bout) is cool, I guess. You can also say she's fair; cool like a cucumber, 'fair' like a maiden. Anyway, she's probably reading this now...(ooops, better not talk bout' all this.) As I was sayin', she had some boy issues, needless to say, I guessed I've been there for her talk with boys n' some problems in life - rumours. Rumours...at least it was subsiding now, thank God. Bloggy, I do really hope that she trusts me as I have the upmost of trust towards her. Peace out Bloggy! By the way, do bless my exam!